I was reminded today to slow down and take things as they come. I tend to want things to happen instantly. I have a laptop with wireless internet connection so I can have the convenience of being online anywhere in my house, but when a page doesn't come up within a few seconds I get agitated. I usually close the page thinking, something must be wrong. Sometimes something is wrong, most of the time it just needs more than a few seconds to load. I am in the process of interviewing for practicums for next year, and I want that process to also just be complete. Today I received a call inviting me to a second interview for the place I didn't think I would be called back on. I immediately went into the mode of, Oh no! Now I have to decide. I was gently reminded by my husband that this is a step in the process, not the completion of the process. It does help me calm down and think a bit more clearly when I remember that this is a step, not the end. I am just so anxious for everything to work out I tend to skip right to the hard parts.
This applies to my running as well. When I started on my run today I could only think about being done. I want to be able to relax and enjoy the run, but my mind races to both the end of that particular run as well as to running the marathon. I don't want to just focus on the end, I want to be dedicated to the journey...
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4 comments:
glad I could be of assistance :)
you are doing great both with your running and school schedule, so keep up your hard work!
Angie, thanks for sharing your practicum search with me yesterday. It is exciting to hear about your interviews. I feel for you in wanting the moments to "hurry up" so you can move unto the next thing. Barry is so good about helping you to "savor" the moment. We are all proud of the dedication you are giving to your education and now your running!
Remember the family vacations we had as kids? I remember fighting with you over putting a finger on my side of the seat, I remember being so car sick that I had to switch places with mom and sit in the front, I remember having to pee so bad my teeth were floating, but we had just left a rest stop a few minutes ago, I remember playing roadside bingo and the memorization games with the alphabet, (I play them with Rachel now when we go to Alexandria, I went on a picnic and I brought an apple, a banana, a chair...) I remember those parts of the vacations that didn't make it into the photo album like they were yesterday. Once we got to our destination everything went by so fast it was a blur, and we needed the photos to remind us. Then came those memorable trips home again. Enjoy your walk through life, the end comes suddenly and you really can't do it over again.... keep it up.
Ah yes, the family car rides...very wise, I need to take after my big brother a little more!
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